the things i dread

well first off i don't really want to go back to school..but Jen made a good point today that i have wed and Fridays off and i can come home whenever i want to....good thing that i have ppl at home that would welcome me home anytime and love me...i have Megan at school which is a good thing cuz if i didn't i don't know what would happen. but i guess one more semester and then i am done with Mitchell. Then CCSU!!

i don't know why but for the past couple days i have been mad/ sad and i don't even know why.. i should be happy because things are some what back to normal..

i really do dread going to the doctor which i might have to if i can't move my left arm over my head in a couple days...but i am trying to tough it out because when i get hurt everyone makes a big deal out of it and it just pisses me off like i told my mom we only live ones and if i die snowboarding at least i die doing something fun and die while with someone close to me and being happy. I really hate being unhappy because i know that there are people out in the world that have it a thousand time worse then i do.

i have been thinking a lot lately about almost everything....and its eats me away cuz my thinking goes into my sleeping, i have nightmares and wake up a thousand times a night. i just want to have one night where i sleep through the night...

on a happy note:
a week from Friday is my daddy's b-day!!
i am getting contacts =)
i love snowboarding!!
i have a job even tho its not many hours but its money right?
we have a soccer game Friday YAY!! i love soccer

side note: i went snowboarding for my first time on Sunday and i had so much fun i got a Lil hurt but nothing Advil can't fix, it was worth it and i def want to go again..(thanks Big Sis you are great teacher.)

well its bed time i have to get up and do stuff tomorrow and then go back to school but on the bright side i will be back for my soccer game on Friday..