a big jumble..

This was written a couple days ago...but not posted until now..these are the thoughts and they might not make sense.but i needed to write them down. and blog you don't talk back so i am telling you.but its the past and now is the future..its a new day..A new beginning



I told you that i was OK..
I let you walk away..
I knew that you knew why i left our conversation..
I could see it in your eyes when i came back..
I couldn't look at you..
All i could do is stair into space or look at the wall in front of me..
I could have gone in your room to tell you i wasn't OK..
But i was in fear of what would happen..
I knew that you weren't OK..
But i was selfish and let you walk away..
I wanted to see if you were OK...
I wanted to be there for you
But i couldn't
I was trap in my own mind..
My own pain..
My own tears..

(I hope you will forgive me after all we are the same person..)